New Year's Eve
Woah, it's the last day of the Chicken year already... Decided to blog something as this will be like my last post of lunar year 2005.
It's been 28 days in school. I have to admit, apart from orienatation, school's been really crappy. I'm like having so much trouble keeping up with my school work; I find myself falling asleep in most lectures and not understanding almost all my tutorials. The pace's really really fast and I am seriously lagging behind.
I find myself missing VS so much... too much. Take for example, just last week alone, I walked back to VS after school like 4 times out of 5 schooling days. It just feels so warm in that familiar grounds. It feels back at home seeing my juniors and teachers, and watching/helping out my juniors in Monitors' Council, IT Club, Peer Support Board and Leadership Training Camp in action. I've had no mood for doing homework, for I have gotton no drive from VJ to do all these work. And mind you, the difference in difficulty level of the J1 syllabus is so much more compared to Sec 4's...
In class; Having been so used to being a class monitor in VS for 4 years, it feels pretty out of place not doing the same old job. Whenever the CT rep shouts for "class stand", I am perturbed. Looks like i need more time to get used to the changes. In fact, I miss the times I've had as class monitor, with my class Sec 4D, even though they could be an irritating bunch at times. lol. However, I do consider the fact that it's good for a change too...
And now, so many people from my 4D are like CT reps for their respective CT classes. Sometimes I really wonder whether I made the right choice of resigning as CT rep and deciding to try for SC instead.
Ever since I resigned, I find myself pretty quiet in class (not the usual loud/outspoken/talkative me); lost from my usual routine. My CT class also doesn't give me a very strong sense of belonging (unlike in VS). Perhaps because I don't have any close friends from VS in it to hang out much with., hence I feel so out of place. Moreover, class has been distinctively split into 3 groups. The Dunman/VS group, the CCHS/Cedar group and the chinese scholars group. Though they are rather enthusiastic about stuff, I still do not feel like a part of them. (I am still trying to fit in though, trying to participate as much activities with them.)
Issit because I still can't let go of VS? or do I need more time?
In fact, I'm in such a dilemma whether to stay on in VJ or not. Staying on would mean constant distraction about VS, and also to remain as a lost sheep in my class. I think what I really need now is to be in a class where my close friends from VS are, who can provide me the necessary competition to strive for a goal. (Unfortunately most of my very close friends take Bio instead of Phy) Even those who take physics are in different classes.
Having heard of many positive comments from my peers in other JCs currently, I am starting to realise VJC might not be the best place for me (I've heard that NJC and even RJC's a nice place). This is despite the fact that I've always been hoping to enter VJC in the first place since VS. I'm lost... perhaps... it's still too early to tell. But... I've like got only 2 weeks more till the O Level results are released, and I have to make a sound decision by then.
On the other hand, VJC's good in such a way that I have my constant support from my VS peers, and not forgetting that I've already made good friends with quite a number of people, seniors as well as VIP juniors. Also, at least I've got my foundations in my current CCAs, iComp and the Piano Emsemble. I am also running for Students' Council, of which I recently had an interview. Of course, whether these will still be possible boils down to whether my O Level results will make it for me to stay on...
Should/Would I leave for another JC? Only weeks will tell...
Yesterday was the school's celebration for the New Year. I didn't really enjoy it though. Thk god school ended pretty early, so much so that the VS people actaully marched back together back to VS. Woah, what a sight! Some VS juniors were actually staring out of the hall to admire this rare phenomenon.
The meeting in VS was so cool. Got to meet up with ex-Victorians, and also enjoy the CNY concert...
... Ok, I've got to leave home now to my cousin's place for the traditional reunion dinner. Shall continue when I return.
It's like 10 more mins to CNY now. I hope to finish this post by then.
Yup, I was talking about VS. It's just awesome, meeting up with old pals. There was even this Victorian Idol thingy, and the first guy sang the Chi Pang really great. He really deserves to win. =) Following which, went bowling with Kian sin, Daniel, Clarence, Jeremy and Zhenyi at Katong. Then I rushed off to Mac @ Parkway to meet up with me OG. After which I rushed off to Novena to meet up with some of my classmates to go to our senior's place. It was only when we reached there then I realised we were having BBQ. Had much fun there with the food, the company and the card games. =) Thks Clare for making it happen.
So much for a Pre-CNY activity... haha... So bz...
Oh well, having seen blogs of my S61 classmates, and they seem to kinda liked their JC life. Sigh, when will my turn to like JC life be?
Btw, wishing all of you a Happy New Year. Juz 2 more mins..
Signing off... 11:58pm, 28th Jan.
It's been 28 days in school. I have to admit, apart from orienatation, school's been really crappy. I'm like having so much trouble keeping up with my school work; I find myself falling asleep in most lectures and not understanding almost all my tutorials. The pace's really really fast and I am seriously lagging behind.
I find myself missing VS so much... too much. Take for example, just last week alone, I walked back to VS after school like 4 times out of 5 schooling days. It just feels so warm in that familiar grounds. It feels back at home seeing my juniors and teachers, and watching/helping out my juniors in Monitors' Council, IT Club, Peer Support Board and Leadership Training Camp in action. I've had no mood for doing homework, for I have gotton no drive from VJ to do all these work. And mind you, the difference in difficulty level of the J1 syllabus is so much more compared to Sec 4's...
In class; Having been so used to being a class monitor in VS for 4 years, it feels pretty out of place not doing the same old job. Whenever the CT rep shouts for "class stand", I am perturbed. Looks like i need more time to get used to the changes. In fact, I miss the times I've had as class monitor, with my class Sec 4D, even though they could be an irritating bunch at times. lol. However, I do consider the fact that it's good for a change too...
And now, so many people from my 4D are like CT reps for their respective CT classes. Sometimes I really wonder whether I made the right choice of resigning as CT rep and deciding to try for SC instead.
Ever since I resigned, I find myself pretty quiet in class (not the usual loud/outspoken/talkative me); lost from my usual routine. My CT class also doesn't give me a very strong sense of belonging (unlike in VS). Perhaps because I don't have any close friends from VS in it to hang out much with., hence I feel so out of place. Moreover, class has been distinctively split into 3 groups. The Dunman/VS group, the CCHS/Cedar group and the chinese scholars group. Though they are rather enthusiastic about stuff, I still do not feel like a part of them. (I am still trying to fit in though, trying to participate as much activities with them.)
Issit because I still can't let go of VS? or do I need more time?
In fact, I'm in such a dilemma whether to stay on in VJ or not. Staying on would mean constant distraction about VS, and also to remain as a lost sheep in my class. I think what I really need now is to be in a class where my close friends from VS are, who can provide me the necessary competition to strive for a goal. (Unfortunately most of my very close friends take Bio instead of Phy) Even those who take physics are in different classes.
Having heard of many positive comments from my peers in other JCs currently, I am starting to realise VJC might not be the best place for me (I've heard that NJC and even RJC's a nice place). This is despite the fact that I've always been hoping to enter VJC in the first place since VS. I'm lost... perhaps... it's still too early to tell. But... I've like got only 2 weeks more till the O Level results are released, and I have to make a sound decision by then.
On the other hand, VJC's good in such a way that I have my constant support from my VS peers, and not forgetting that I've already made good friends with quite a number of people, seniors as well as VIP juniors. Also, at least I've got my foundations in my current CCAs, iComp and the Piano Emsemble. I am also running for Students' Council, of which I recently had an interview. Of course, whether these will still be possible boils down to whether my O Level results will make it for me to stay on...
Should/Would I leave for another JC? Only weeks will tell...
Yesterday was the school's celebration for the New Year. I didn't really enjoy it though. Thk god school ended pretty early, so much so that the VS people actaully marched back together back to VS. Woah, what a sight! Some VS juniors were actually staring out of the hall to admire this rare phenomenon.
The meeting in VS was so cool. Got to meet up with ex-Victorians, and also enjoy the CNY concert...
It's like 10 more mins to CNY now. I hope to finish this post by then.
Yup, I was talking about VS. It's just awesome, meeting up with old pals. There was even this Victorian Idol thingy, and the first guy sang the Chi Pang really great. He really deserves to win. =) Following which, went bowling with Kian sin, Daniel, Clarence, Jeremy and Zhenyi at Katong. Then I rushed off to Mac @ Parkway to meet up with me OG. After which I rushed off to Novena to meet up with some of my classmates to go to our senior's place. It was only when we reached there then I realised we were having BBQ. Had much fun there with the food, the company and the card games. =) Thks Clare for making it happen.
So much for a Pre-CNY activity... haha... So bz...
Oh well, having seen blogs of my S61 classmates, and they seem to kinda liked their JC life. Sigh, when will my turn to like JC life be?
Btw, wishing all of you a Happy New Year. Juz 2 more mins..
Signing off... 11:58pm, 28th Jan.
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